Wednesday, November 03, 2004

The Importance of Elan

The horror that I awoke to today upon turning on the television for the election results was not unlike the morning I learned that The Terminator was to be my governor. I'd like to say that he is the reason that I left California, but it's simply not true.

In the face of such adversity and impending adversity, I can't help but think of a quote from a $10 shirt I bought years ago, which read, "Adversity: that which does not kill me postpones the inevitable." I've since thought i grew past that, or at least grew to think that more constructive thinking would be better for me and the world around me. Anyway, but instead of dropping into such despair as when the Governator came into power, I've decided to put some extra fervor into my daily healthy living routine and also think of something more immediately satisfying to do in terms of giving to my surrounding community. I'd been forgetting to read my vision statement, so I read it again today. I love reading my vision statement.

Today, I listened to The Langley Schools Music Project while riding on the stationary bicycle. I also read the entire little booklet included. There were several mentions of the importance of elan ["vigorous spirit or enthusiasm"], which coincided well with Bryan's concept of "spew" that he proposed to me last week to help me get out of my writer's block. I've been having a hard time actually writing what I'd call a poem, because when I set out to write one, I feel it is too easy. When writing poems seems easy to me, I tend to think it's because I'm not challenging myself enough. But Bryan was saying that maybe I need to get through those "easy" poems in order to get to the ones that I really want to write. Maybe these poems are necessary. So, I've just been spewing. I've been spewing out poems and writing. Last night, I forgot about "spew" and I didn't write. Today, I will remember.

Bryan and I are constructing a Murphy Bed for the guest room. Pictures coming soon.